I genuinely question my attraction to men everyday because I literally find no enjoyment in texting them, nor interacting with them at all.
Normal people my age love snapping random guys on Snapchat. They get excited when they send a slither of their face back, as opposed to the usual roof photo. But not me. Whenever I start texting a dude on Snapchat I instantly regret it. Then the whole time I’m dreading them texting me because then I have to respond back.
Most of the time it’s not the man’s fault (surprisingly), although sometimes it definitely is (why can’t they hold a conversation?). But recently, I’ve just found the whole ordeal exhausting.
To be honest, I haven’t used Snapchat in like 6 months, so I have no clue why I started again. It’s just that I met this dude on a sort-of dating app, he had the same music taste as me, alright looking and seemed nice. We’ve been talking on Snap for like a day and I’m already over it. I really don’t like Snapchat.
He’s nice and seems like an alright dude, it’s just I don’t find enjoyment in texting men. It lowkey causes me unnecessary stress. I keep telling myself it’s just because it’s on Snapchat and I have a general aversion to that app, but then I ask myself, would it be any different in real life? And honestly, I can’t answer that. Limited experience.
However, if it was a woman texting me on Snapchat, I’d enjoy it much more, and maybe wouldn’t dread having to respond. I don’t know, maybe I’m being stupid. I constantly fear I won’t ever be able to get into a relationship, and this isn’t helping my cause.
Oh well, that’s all I have to say right now. He’s texting me again and it’s 1:40am right now. Hence, I’m going to pretend I’m sleeping and let future me deal with responding. Goodnight!
See you soon,
catg1rl06 <3
